Film film #78
2023, Acylic on board, 30x30cm
R990.00
Mishmash, cathexis, association. Where to file complex systems of association in the mind? Incorrect association, categories, constellations coalesce. Thoughts, experiences, images, coalesce correctly or incorrectly forming constellations. Re-raking the mind to recategorise more correctly. Repetition. Categorise the concept: the images, thoughts and experiences that coalesce on a concept, on a category, correctly or incorrectly. Links, psychic data that links to a category, or concept, infinite links possible. Pathways to repressed data through links within the web of psychic data. Structure, categories, irrational pathways, stupidity, delusion, illusion, coping mechanisms, unwilling to face reality, trauma, incompleteness, form residual psychic traces that fail to assimilate into identity. Gaze, image of self, that is constantly held, subconsciously before the consciousness. The familiar. Looking for affirmation, constant affirmation, desiring to know whether this image of self is true, desiring it to be true, causing trauma when outside stimulation does not affirm it, searching intently for any negative to test the hull integrity, focusing on any negative sign or possible affirmative sign. Vacillation, oscillation, appearing disappearing and reappearing, repeatedly. What is wrong with me? Uncertainty, lacking veracity, the self image lacking veracity.