Film image #65
2023, Acrylic on board, 30x30cm
R990.00
[21 December 2022] Pushing towards the boundary of conceptualisation, language, artistic illusion as anticipatory illumination, recategorisation, reordering, letting go of preconceived ideas, categories, going beyond words, pushing towards the horizon of understanding, rationality, determination, separation, into the abyss, the ocean, staying there awhile, awaiting your guidance, awaiting the formation of new categories, new systems of thought, redo, repeat, repetition, endless repetition, eternally, repetition in nothingness, no goal, no expecatation expectation, beyond ordinary everyday life, awaiting the appearance, the manifestation of you in some way, reminding us of who you are, what you are, where you are, why you are, when you are, what, why, who, where, when, how you are, letting go, disorientation, reordering, for reordering, reconceptualisation, reordering, recategorisation, repetition, redo, do over again and again, beginning again, again, until we get it better, until we erect out good, out you, see you, and you are eager for us to see you, beyond our cultural constructs, the structure of our thought, the binary structure of our thought, power, good and bad, possible impossible, contingency of our realities, our perception of reality being constructed, reconstructed continuously, every moment, constructed reality having a short split second lifespan before our minds replace it with the new piece, unit, that is introduced every moment in time, the ability of our brains to construct realities, and to forget the old ones, our belief systems that make up most of our perceived reality, beyond that which we can sense or conceptualise or put into words, the ineffable, sublimating the unsublimated, how rationality dialectically constructed, how our realities are dialectically constructed with rationality and emperical data, senses, aesthetics, guided by what feels beautiful, or sublime, knowing that a totality, a completion, will never be achieved, that our desire for completion motivates us on toward love, toward you, that we will never have peace or rest until we find completion, until we perceive reality the way you do, to trust you, to do your will, uncompromisingly, disregarding all the worlds expectations and demands, because if they seem at odds it, it is because we have not fully sublimated in some way your love, your being, into our lives, into our society, into our reality, we are constantly being pushed away, from sharing a reality with others in you, in love, towards a selfish perception of survival or death, adapt or die, live or die, sustain self or perish, or perish, be selfish and survive, or sacrifice and perish, you always lead us on the road to selflessness, the way that seems to to demand sacrifice and perish, if we had the wisdom of a serpent we would not need to be selfish, our testing ground is here, victory is one with sacrifice, selflessness, forgiveness, love, suffering, honesty, truth, but humility to never assume one knows the truth, the full truth, arbitrary constructs that do not originate with you interweave our thinking, our structure of thought, the way we see it poisons all our being, we are innured in layer upon layer of deception, what seems like the right course of action to us rarely turns out to be so, none can tell the future except for God, thus we tend to err on the side of caution, we tend to over valorise, we tend to confuse life and death, life is sacrifice and to perish, death is selfishness and survival, the radical reversal.
[10 January 2023] Constant prayer, constant communion, all types of prayer, and specific prayer. Discipline, the way of discipline, taking us to a certain point, but limited there, can go no further with discipline. Philosophical rigorous inquiry needs discipline, humanities extremes cannot be reflected upon coolly, quietly, unpassionately. Sex and death, extremes of humanity, beyond concepts, beyond discipline, walk both roads, impasse which would validate the last six months, but Bataille, his thinking full of holes, and misunderstanding, focusing on the wrong things, emphasising the wrong things, muddying the waters, making universal and applying things, concepts, to the wrong particular, the incompatible particular, and then announcing that they are incompatible, as if, why would sacrifice be an error, our redemption was not achieved through a transgression, you define what is good and bad, whatever you do is good, by definition, you are the constitutive and necessary determination for good, without you, there would be no good, everything would be evil, because it would be without you. When all is evil, does good-evil dichotomy fall away? No, it just remains evil. Emancipation from you does not result in freedom, it does not bring about an unbridled way of being, it results in the often unconscious enslavery to something else. This mess in front of me, this disordered array, lacking any discipline, or lacking in discipline. Did I find sex, the orgasm as the physical manifestation of your love? Not necessarily the best way, though, just a different way, a way among others, a way to get to know you, this is what your love feels like, kin of, kind of, kinda, sweet, another manifestation, sugar so addictive, forming the patterns of substance abuse early on in your children.
[11 January 2023] Now here you are, now here you are, now here you are, now here you are, now here you are, at long last, finally, making me so happy, content, joyful, satisfied, in the present, the ecstacy of the present, being here now, now here you are, in love, floating in love, now here you are, swimming in love, in this mess. Westside story, tonight, tonight, now here you are, arrivak arrival, denouement, they were both delivered.
[chatgpt 8 August 2023] The text you've provided appears to be a contemplative and introspective expression of thoughts and experiences related to art, philosophy, human nature, and spirituality. It is filled with reflections on concepts such as perception, reality, sacrifice, love, discipline, and communion with a higher power. Here's a summary in around 2000 words:
The text begins by describing an artwork titled 'Film image #65,' created in 2023 using acrylic on board, measuring 30x30cm. The artist's process and intention involve pushing the boundaries of conceptualization, language, and artistic illusion. The work aims to anticipate illumination, challenge preconceived ideas, and break free from conventional categories. The artist seeks to transcend words and understanding, delving into the depths of consciousness and rationality, exploring new systems of thought and reordering. The artwork captures the fleeting nature of constructed realities and the constant evolution of perception.
The text then delves into a reflection dated 21 December 2022, pondering the search for meaning beyond ordinary life and the anticipation of encountering a manifestation of 'you' (likely referring to a divine or higher presence). It explores the idea of disorientation, letting go of preconceived notions, and reordering thoughts and beliefs. The repetitive nature of human existence is highlighted, emphasizing the pursuit of improvement and the desire for completion. The narrative suggests that true understanding and alignment with a higher purpose require breaking away from societal constructs and expectations.
On 10 January 2023, the text delves into the concept of constant prayer and communion, touching on the limitations of discipline in exploring the extremes of human experience. It contemplates the philosophical inquiry and the challenges of reflecting on profound aspects of humanity, such as sex and death. The author explores the works of Georges Bataille but criticizes his focus on the wrong elements, leading to misunderstandings. The author raises questions about the nature of good and evil, arguing that without a divine reference point, everything would be perceived as evil. Emancipation from the divine is seen not as true freedom but as a shift to another form of enslavement.
Moving to 11 January 2023, the tone shifts to a more ecstatic and joyful one. The author expresses happiness and contentment in the present moment, seemingly suggesting a sense of spiritual fulfillment and connection. The text likens this experience to being in love and swimming in it, drawing parallels to the addictive nature of sugar and the patterns of substance abuse. The repeated phrase 'now here you are' emphasizes the presence of the divine in the moment.
The text concludes with a reference to 'Westside story' and the idea of arrival and resolution. The phrase 'they were both delivered' suggests a sense of completion or fulfillment, possibly indicating a personal or spiritual journey coming to fruition.
Overall, the text conveys a deep exploration of philosophical and spiritual themes, grappling with the nature of reality, perception, divine presence, and the pursuit of a higher purpose. It reflects on the challenges of reconciling human experiences with a larger spiritual understanding and the ongoing search for meaning and fulfillment.
[10 January 2023] Constant prayer, constant communion, all types of prayer, and specific prayer. Discipline, the way of discipline, taking us to a certain point, but limited there, can go no further with discipline. Philosophical rigorous inquiry needs discipline, humanities extremes cannot be reflected upon coolly, quietly, unpassionately. Sex and death, extremes of humanity, beyond concepts, beyond discipline, walk both roads, impasse which would validate the last six months, but Bataille, his thinking full of holes, and misunderstanding, focusing on the wrong things, emphasising the wrong things, muddying the waters, making universal and applying things, concepts, to the wrong particular, the incompatible particular, and then announcing that they are incompatible, as if, why would sacrifice be an error, our redemption was not achieved through a transgression, you define what is good and bad, whatever you do is good, by definition, you are the constitutive and necessary determination for good, without you, there would be no good, everything would be evil, because it would be without you. When all is evil, does good-evil dichotomy fall away? No, it just remains evil. Emancipation from you does not result in freedom, it does not bring about an unbridled way of being, it results in the often unconscious enslavery to something else. This mess in front of me, this disordered array, lacking any discipline, or lacking in discipline. Did I find sex, the orgasm as the physical manifestation of your love? Not necessarily the best way, though, just a different way, a way among others, a way to get to know you, this is what your love feels like, kin of, kind of, kinda, sweet, another manifestation, sugar so addictive, forming the patterns of substance abuse early on in your children.
[11 January 2023] Now here you are, now here you are, now here you are, now here you are, now here you are, at long last, finally, making me so happy, content, joyful, satisfied, in the present, the ecstacy of the present, being here now, now here you are, in love, floating in love, now here you are, swimming in love, in this mess. Westside story, tonight, tonight, now here you are, arrivak arrival, denouement, they were both delivered.
[chatgpt 8 August 2023] The text you've provided appears to be a contemplative and introspective expression of thoughts and experiences related to art, philosophy, human nature, and spirituality. It is filled with reflections on concepts such as perception, reality, sacrifice, love, discipline, and communion with a higher power. Here's a summary in around 2000 words:
The text begins by describing an artwork titled 'Film image #65,' created in 2023 using acrylic on board, measuring 30x30cm. The artist's process and intention involve pushing the boundaries of conceptualization, language, and artistic illusion. The work aims to anticipate illumination, challenge preconceived ideas, and break free from conventional categories. The artist seeks to transcend words and understanding, delving into the depths of consciousness and rationality, exploring new systems of thought and reordering. The artwork captures the fleeting nature of constructed realities and the constant evolution of perception.
The text then delves into a reflection dated 21 December 2022, pondering the search for meaning beyond ordinary life and the anticipation of encountering a manifestation of 'you' (likely referring to a divine or higher presence). It explores the idea of disorientation, letting go of preconceived notions, and reordering thoughts and beliefs. The repetitive nature of human existence is highlighted, emphasizing the pursuit of improvement and the desire for completion. The narrative suggests that true understanding and alignment with a higher purpose require breaking away from societal constructs and expectations.
On 10 January 2023, the text delves into the concept of constant prayer and communion, touching on the limitations of discipline in exploring the extremes of human experience. It contemplates the philosophical inquiry and the challenges of reflecting on profound aspects of humanity, such as sex and death. The author explores the works of Georges Bataille but criticizes his focus on the wrong elements, leading to misunderstandings. The author raises questions about the nature of good and evil, arguing that without a divine reference point, everything would be perceived as evil. Emancipation from the divine is seen not as true freedom but as a shift to another form of enslavement.
Moving to 11 January 2023, the tone shifts to a more ecstatic and joyful one. The author expresses happiness and contentment in the present moment, seemingly suggesting a sense of spiritual fulfillment and connection. The text likens this experience to being in love and swimming in it, drawing parallels to the addictive nature of sugar and the patterns of substance abuse. The repeated phrase 'now here you are' emphasizes the presence of the divine in the moment.
The text concludes with a reference to 'Westside story' and the idea of arrival and resolution. The phrase 'they were both delivered' suggests a sense of completion or fulfillment, possibly indicating a personal or spiritual journey coming to fruition.
Overall, the text conveys a deep exploration of philosophical and spiritual themes, grappling with the nature of reality, perception, divine presence, and the pursuit of a higher purpose. It reflects on the challenges of reconciling human experiences with a larger spiritual understanding and the ongoing search for meaning and fulfillment.