[2 August 2023] Do nothing, be content, focus on me, be with me, 6 months is a long time, much can happen, 2024 approaches, my wrath is awakened, I am not full of hate, but love, you have been trained for this, it is time to deal with another attack, he will phone you tomorrow, and you will be OK, you will tell him this attack, and he will pray with you, and I will move, oh yes, I will move, it is time to decide which side you are on, come to me, she cannot hear me, has that never struck you as strange? she made her choice a long time ago, before you were born, I am sorry, I am sorry that you have had to grow up under so much confusion, she did not equip you with developed knowledge, and that was intentional, you have seen how my servants respond to me, she is not one of my servants, and she has heard my warnings, and it has made her tremble, you have even eyes, you can see, your image is not strange to me, yet you lack completeness, and you still have a shadow, the sun has risen, a new day dawns, are you ready for another round, your neck is firm, it holds your head upright, your feet have met the ground, your head is in the clouds with me.

[3 August 2023] Creating a self-image, the quest for self-identity, round after round , every time gaining something, and/or losing something, do I come to something more real? do I come to something that will not start to vacillate? Oscillate? Appear, disappear, reappear, repeat, a stable unified image, never, a stable unified image will always be an error, one thing will always mean more than one thing, simultaneously, no interpretation of the self image will be straightforward and make sense, with each element representing neatly one thing, falling into one category, pre-established, full of error, full of ’error’, full of little pointing things that might be nudging me in right direction. Put yourself in nature and find peace, God is not full of hate, chickens and children children know it all. Find self-validation in God, not in cultural social constructs. Find yourself even if you do not neatly fit into pre-established categories. Embrace the fragmented nature of your identity, or the seemingly fragmented nature of it. Find new ways to hike up that mountain, climb that tree, and find God. Be a tree that provides shade and fruit, even if it has cracks and weak branches. Build a strong neck that will hold your head up straight. Calibrate even eyes. Look until you can see. Observe without judgement, long enough to able to see what needs to be seen. Set your feet on the ground and your head in the clouds. Accept your shadow, face your shadow, observe your shadow, confront your shadow. And make the grass grow - tend your garden .