I like this, I want to be here. Does everyone? Am I made for this? This builds me up, this makes me feel better, this is consoling to me. The warmth of the sun on my feet. It is like swimming, I feel like my whole body is surrounded by something, and that the normal anchors to the earth are gone; like I’m floating.

“Maak n plan!”
“Watter plan?”

Dark night, midnight, distorted,
concupiscence, strong sexual desire, lust,
darkness, distorted, transgression of real boundaries, normal boundaries,
‘good’ boundaries, grotesque.
How easily something can be made to look grotesque!

Disintegration, warping planes.

Sullen glowing ember of the heart,
semen running down its leg,
in the sky, in the night sky,
celestial, like a star constellation.
Observe the thought without judgement!

Texture and grain,

werewolves and vampires,
slippery footing,
watery grounds,
walking on airs!

bubbling and boiling,
ebullient lake,
shame and guilt,
worn out clichés!

rain clouds and turmoil,
gists, gusts and jizz-
running down my leg,
sexually viable option I am! Am I?

Clouds and water vapours,
running into moulds,
running around the spiritual shapes,
forming around the spiritual shapes,
revealing, un-concealing!

emptying vessel,
draining,
chosen,
grooved,
hooved!

“I just don’t have the energy right now to type out the story of my friend, maybe another time, ... you know, the one about how he got busted by the police with drugs.”