24 October 2022

Film imagge 57 and 58 (Unfinished). staring into the pool the water the pond vibrations rhythms tempo slowing down slowing down slow slow slow no hurry we got nowhere to go nothing to achieve no projects in the present the now right here right now blood sacrifice payment bleeding pain disease drama indulgence selfish indulgence bleeding polluting oscillating snowing flickering snow and flicker existing in short repeated digital bursts each appearance slightly different to the one that came before it creating the sense of something moving living the appearance of something moving but that is actually dead the imitation of life by dead things the convincing imitation of life by dead things flicker and snow where do they go when they are not appearing in the small gaps between appearing between any two points there is an infinity where do they go oblivion a spiritual realm glitches when something dissappears for a split second and reappears in a slightly differnt position i accept the new position memtally and adjust all that happened before to make a unified mentak image a seamless image a coherent image based on the new position the glithch was traumatic it was something that broke the coherent unified image was the glitch good or bad or both what was gained what was lost cannot see now the same way i saw before the glitch everything every category has become adjusted to this new vision this new image nothing is real that this image cannot assimilate sublimate everything that falls outside of this image this post glitched image is unreal and it all happens uncontiously beyond the horizon of consciousness below the surface of the water where things rise and fall in currents musterious the unconscious split second recreation of reality every split second assumed givien nature my nature what i am normally nature i am nature iam part of nature the nature outside of me where do i begin where do i end am i connected to everything in some way can i see all through the water can i feel every river as an extension of me what would the that look like how would that appear to me how would that manifest to me the magic in the image searching for the magic in the image searching searching playing playing clstrophobic suffocating abandance of leaves and vegetation drowning in the water awkwarsness awkwardness vague not sharply determined in flux moving changing glitching snowing flickering bleeding