Repetition series 2022: Film image #53-56
11 August 2022
Displayed side by side , panorama, long wide horizon , rolling hills, each valley contains a mother and child couple looking out toward the sea with their backs to the viewer, making the viewer a spectator, if i could see my reflection, what would I be? What would I look like? What would I be like? Good or evil? Disintegrated . Listening to rain, disintegrating into the rain, drifting, particles drifting , losing the center , the unity, where shall i place the border between me and not me, me and the outside, inside and outside, where is this border, where is this border on my body, where do i place myself in my body? Why do i recognise these patterns, are the pathways in my brain, dormant pathways, waiting to be activated, do i have the capacity to see things i now don’t see? How do i activate those pathways, how do i draw to the surface the thoughts undetermined from the pool of the unconscious, how do i draw them to the surface, make them rise out , and become determined , you expand me inwardly so that i can see so that i am able to see, i am blind , you expand me inwardly so that i can understand , beyond understanding, i can rise above myself, i can lose the center , i can have vision beyond the center the unity the point of view, what would the be like like, beyond sight , no sight no feeling . Waves , moving up and down on waves, slow large waves, primordial waves, proto thoughts, being water. Ignorance sadness stumbling on in a world beyond anyones capbility to understand to know what good or bad or real, going on blindly stumbly with dim sight what lied ahead of what is wanted expected the weight of what is expected the burden of expactation what do you want me to do? Does everyone need to read a hundred books on postmodernism religion history ? Analysis om socoety and the world and God. And you. Do i see you ? Are you subtending us. Robots in a post human world, lookinglike humans, thinking like humans , not creatures of God. Creatures of man.
12 August 2022
I long to see you as you are glory beautiful sublime i will be expanded so that i can look at you you will expand me inwardly me not me inside outside inward outward where am i? My body enables me to be in this reality this common reality, it is the reality that presses upon me the most, it demands priority, and it is in this reality thst you wamt me to be primarily for now, my fallen body my fallen state, resotred restored , a glimpse or a taste of the rstored restored self, where is this self? Where does my body begin and end, where does my self begin and end , do i have one center , a unity, how will my restored self be , will it be centered one unity, trinity, decntered, three dtermined enities identifiable entities three three but one one but three not one not three beyond understanding will never understand thst , glimpse glance by repetition copies thst are not many and not one not the same not different i understand that this woman and child are not four different couples i understand that they are the same couple, this is the same scene , but they are different. The truth the facts , when reported represented, demonstration of how the same story can be told, and how much the story can change before it is not recognised as that story anymore. How are you being represented to me how is thst effecting my idea of you my idea of you must be all wrong how do i fix that come play with with and i will show youwith withwith come go move closer mover further away am i a locus in the spacial universe can you go somewhere and find me you can but what that means is you are going to places with less ditractions less obstacles can you hear the angel choir the beatific music thst they are continuously making can you hear it will you hear it with your ears no will you see me with your eyes no will i be rustling many little things many things and not many things iam not ine i am not many in between? That i guess is the closest onewith can get the inbetween one and many, inbetween inside outside, known unknown. Lies the truth. Half in half out. All good, by definitioin, it is impossible for me to be evil, all iwith think, all iwith do , good, good is defined by mewith, iwith do not comply to some law that determines delineates, goodness, what is not mewith, nothing, i sustain all, if i do not sustain it does not exist, unmade, destroyed ,
Displayed side by side , panorama, long wide horizon , rolling hills, each valley contains a mother and child couple looking out toward the sea with their backs to the viewer, making the viewer a spectator, if i could see my reflection, what would I be? What would I look like? What would I be like? Good or evil? Disintegrated . Listening to rain, disintegrating into the rain, drifting, particles drifting , losing the center , the unity, where shall i place the border between me and not me, me and the outside, inside and outside, where is this border, where is this border on my body, where do i place myself in my body? Why do i recognise these patterns, are the pathways in my brain, dormant pathways, waiting to be activated, do i have the capacity to see things i now don’t see? How do i activate those pathways, how do i draw to the surface the thoughts undetermined from the pool of the unconscious, how do i draw them to the surface, make them rise out , and become determined , you expand me inwardly so that i can see so that i am able to see, i am blind , you expand me inwardly so that i can understand , beyond understanding, i can rise above myself, i can lose the center , i can have vision beyond the center the unity the point of view, what would the be like like, beyond sight , no sight no feeling . Waves , moving up and down on waves, slow large waves, primordial waves, proto thoughts, being water. Ignorance sadness stumbling on in a world beyond anyones capbility to understand to know what good or bad or real, going on blindly stumbly with dim sight what lied ahead of what is wanted expected the weight of what is expected the burden of expactation what do you want me to do? Does everyone need to read a hundred books on postmodernism religion history ? Analysis om socoety and the world and God. And you. Do i see you ? Are you subtending us. Robots in a post human world, lookinglike humans, thinking like humans , not creatures of God. Creatures of man.
12 August 2022
I long to see you as you are glory beautiful sublime i will be expanded so that i can look at you you will expand me inwardly me not me inside outside inward outward where am i? My body enables me to be in this reality this common reality, it is the reality that presses upon me the most, it demands priority, and it is in this reality thst you wamt me to be primarily for now, my fallen body my fallen state, resotred restored , a glimpse or a taste of the rstored restored self, where is this self? Where does my body begin and end, where does my self begin and end , do i have one center , a unity, how will my restored self be , will it be centered one unity, trinity, decntered, three dtermined enities identifiable entities three three but one one but three not one not three beyond understanding will never understand thst , glimpse glance by repetition copies thst are not many and not one not the same not different i understand that this woman and child are not four different couples i understand that they are the same couple, this is the same scene , but they are different. The truth the facts , when reported represented, demonstration of how the same story can be told, and how much the story can change before it is not recognised as that story anymore. How are you being represented to me how is thst effecting my idea of you my idea of you must be all wrong how do i fix that come play with with and i will show youwith withwith come go move closer mover further away am i a locus in the spacial universe can you go somewhere and find me you can but what that means is you are going to places with less ditractions less obstacles can you hear the angel choir the beatific music thst they are continuously making can you hear it will you hear it with your ears no will you see me with your eyes no will i be rustling many little things many things and not many things iam not ine i am not many in between? That i guess is the closest onewith can get the inbetween one and many, inbetween inside outside, known unknown. Lies the truth. Half in half out. All good, by definitioin, it is impossible for me to be evil, all iwith think, all iwith do , good, good is defined by mewith, iwith do not comply to some law that determines delineates, goodness, what is not mewith, nothing, i sustain all, if i do not sustain it does not exist, unmade, destroyed ,